Before I ever understood that memory could become a place you return to, I knew my grandmother’s porch.
I can still see it now in the soft glow of recollection: the inviting porch of her little green cottage, the screen door creaking open and shut, flowerpots brimming with color, and the warm sense of welcome that appeared to rise from the house itself. Even before she appeared in the doorway, I knew what waited for me there: safety, tenderness, and the kind of love that asked for nothing except that I come in and stay a while.
My grandmother, Elva Bryant, lived in a tiny cottage that held more comfort than houses twice its size. It sat there modestly, wrapped in flowers and quiet. It seemed to know its own purpose in the world. To others, it may have looked small and plain. To me, it was magical. It was a shelter of porch visits, garden chores, gentle stories, and the steady presence of a woman whose grace molded my childhood more than I could have known at the time.
Grandma had the knack of making each of us feel special, like we were the most important person in her world. Her love was not loud or showy. It lived in her attentiveness, in the softness of her speech, in the way she turned toward you fully when you spoke, as though there were nowhere else in the world she needed to be. In her presence, I never felt overlooked. I felt treasured.
I enjoyed visiting her. Sometimes just to be near the woman I adored. Other times, I visited to help with small tasks that needed attention. Dusting was one of my favorite chores, though it had nothing to do with the love of cleaning. I enjoyed the treasures, keepsakes, and stories that came with them.
The kitchen held her collection of ceramic chickens. I loved the colorful collection and their sweet faces. Grandma would talk and laugh about her bantam chickens that strutted around the yard, larger than life, tiny creatures with considerable self-confidence. With her stories, the kitchen would come alive with her laughter, as she told stories of life on Rogers Mesa.
Her green Victorian-style sofa held a soft sheepskin draped over the back, a gentle nod to the life she once lived. She loved her lambs and their small woolly bodies, tender eyes, and the way they bounced through her pastures.
Even her cows acted as gentle companions with sweet personalities. Grandma especially loved to tell about a favorite cow who knew she ranked above the rest. Sometimes, just to tease her, Grandma would act as if she were going to milk another cow before her. But that particular cow would not allow it; she would push her way to the front, take her rightful place, standing in her familiar milking stance, settling the matter once and for all. Grandma would laugh as she told the tale, always amused by the cow’s cheeky attitude and determination. To Grandma, the animals were not just animals; they were part of her family, always remembered with tenderness and love.
Grandma extended her kindness to the neighborhood cats in Alameda, too. She fed them without hesitation, and before long, the porch and her home were filled with their soft presence. Some stretched out on sunny strips along the porch; others bravely entered the open door and made themselves comfortable inside. Grandma never scolded but enjoyed their company. Once she nestled into her chair to watch her afternoon soaps. Before long, one kitten or another would leap into her lap, curl up against her, purring in utter contentment. She would stroke their fur absently while watching her shows or while visiting with whoever had stopped by for the day.
On warm afternoons, Grandma and I would sit on the porch while I weeded her small garden. She loved flowers, especially pansies and Johnny Jump Ups with their happy little faces. She also liked the chicken and hens that clustered together. Those times were so peaceful, as bees hummed and salty breezes stirred the leaves.
Her talks often returned to Colorado and Rogers Mesa. Even as a child, I could hear the longing in her voice when she talked about her earlier home. She missed the mountains, the mesa, and the ranch. When she spoke, I understood it was not just a place but a part of herself, deeply rooted in her memories and in her heart. At that time, I did not understand that kind of homesickness, but I have come to understand that yearning, especially now.
My favorite stories were always the ones about life on Rogers Mesa. I listened with pride, thrilled by the knowledge that my family had real cowboys and cowgirls among its branches, people who rode horseback, herded sheep, worked hard, and belonged to the rugged land of Colorado. Grandma talked about shearing the sheep in the spring, moving the sheep up to the mountains in summer, about family and neighbors showing up to help, about the work, the meals, and the closeness of the community. People helped one another because that was simply how it was done, generation after generation.
Remembering our time share together, I came to realize she was giving so much more than stories. She handed me my legacy, a heritage rich in character, strength, and loyalty. She offered me memories and a sense of belonging, and a knowing of where I came from. She revealed that family narratives endure through storytelling, in gentle voices, in garden memories, in family recipes, and in cherished gatherings. She taught me that love survives in family stories.
More than forty years have passed since she left this world, and I still carry the warmth and love she shared with me. Her love has not diminished with time; it has settled deeper. I still feel the quiet of her porch, view the soft green cottage, hear her voice drifting across her yard, while I work among her flowers. The years may have taken her from my sight, but not from my heart. She lingers with me in the stories I tell.
I miss her, of course, with a quiet, steady ache reserved for those who loved us so well their absence never stops being felt. But I know one day, I will sit next to her once again. I can almost picture it: leaning close, listening to the sound of her voice, and eager for one more story. She will tell me about her heavenly homecoming, about all she has witnessed, about the loved ones who greeted her there. And the ones she waited for with open arms. And I will listen the way I always did, wrapped in the grace and love of simply being near the woman I adore.
Tales of a Family 